I’ve been humming and hawing on whether to post any more ‘candid’ posts on this blog, recently. I’ve been feeling pretty censored because I know who *could be* reading it, and also cause I don’t want to worry the people that I DO know reading it (hi Mum and Dad!). At the end of the day though, this blog is entitled “A Little Space for Me” for a reason, so here we go.

The past few weeks have been a bit of a blur. I’ve not really been doing much, I feel lethargic and apathetic to such a degree that I just don’t want to have to get out of bed in the morning. I feel so tired right now. Not physically so much, but just tired with everything.

I’m tired of feeling useless. Like everything would probably operate fine around here without me.

I’m tired of the place being a mess because I just can’t bring myself to face the piles of laundry that need done. Or the dishwasher that needs emptied. Not to mention the boxes that are still not sorted through since we moved in, oh… almost two years ago?

I’m tired of being the size I am, of feeling huge and embarassed. Of seeing those looks from people if I dare be seen eating in public - god forbid at Burger King no less. What sort of mother must I be to allow my children to eat such food? It’s all in the parenting you know.

I’m tired of just wishing the day away so I can go back to bed, of just not knowing what to do with myself, or the boys, to pass the time.

I just want a break. I don’t particularly deserve one. I don’t really need one either. I’m just being selfish and wanting some time in my house without everyone else here, without having that guilt of “I should be doing the <insert household chore here>”.

It’s only 12.41pm and I’m tired and want to go back to bed so I can just pretend none of it exists.

So… I’ve been slacking with my photography. HA! “Photography”… sure, that’s what I’ll call it for now anyway!

Here are the best of a small collection though, I hope you like them, I had some fun with photoshop elements this week cause I wasn’t busy trying to come up with half-assed posts, yay!

Zack’s pose when he’s ‘gaming’

The cat’s reaction to the new toy in our house…

And of course my cutest little babby. Zack is handsome, but no one beats this cute lil face, not in my eyes anyway!

So that’s it, my weekly winners. Short n sweet, very sweet even though I do say so myself!

Thanks so much for dropping by and go on over to Lotus at Sarcastic Mom for the latest Weekly Winners.

Hope everyone’s having a great weekend!

So… as any of you who are regulars here (by the way did I mention how much I love and appreciate each and every one of you?) will have noticed, I’ve missed a day of posting. Two now actually… I am now officially a Blog365 Dropout, and I am feeling much more relaxed as a result.

Here are some reasons why I dropped out…

1. The creator of Blog365 dropped out. I heard this one through reading Reba’s blog. (Sorry I’ve not been commenting as much sweety!)
2. At the end of the day, it doesn’t *really* matter, it’s just a blog, just a little space for ME, no one else.
3. I don’t get paid for it, so why should I feel I MUST post every day?
4. I ran out of things to write oh… about 3 months ago?
5. Max is teething. BADLY. That means exceedingly clingy baby who screams most of the time.
6. It was starting to get to me that I wasn’t writing anything of any substance.
7. The PPD has been rearing it’s head a little more recently, something I wasn’t expecting and was unsure of how to deal with.
8. Did I mention Max is teething? Yes? Well it deserves a second mention, it is not just one, but his TWO top front teeth coming through. Ouch!
9. I don’t need to blog every single day for a year to make a point.
10. I have definitely got into the habit of posting now - I won’t lose that, just won’t do it every day.
11. Sometimes I just can’t be bothered to look at the computer at the end of the day.
12. I’m sick of writing ‘fillers’ which are no more interesting for anyone to read than they are for me to post!
13. I saw Sandy’s badges and decided I HAD to have one!

My name is Marylin, and I’m a Blog365 Dropout.

I can never think of a decent title these days… and I always feel stuck on what to write about. Sucks right? I’m a blogger with Blogger’s Block. So please… feel free to send a lil inspiration my way, meme’s, anything!

Is there anything you want to know about me? About Scotland? Ask and I will try to tell you!

Want to see more pics of the boys, the cat, the hubby, the house… whatever? Just let me know and I’ll see if I can get the toddler to pose, or maybe even the cat, although really, he strikes a pose pretty nicely without instruction.

I’m feeling pretty apathetic at the moment. Apathetic, is that even the right word? Oh well, I’ll look it up later. Hmm, ok… maybe I’m just being lazy.

So!

Yes!

Questions!

Ask me some!!

Smoochies and hugs in advance