Inspiration lost.

Just can’t get into the groove

today… I’ll be back!

I’m just too icky to be able to think in Haiku for long today! Sore back cuz I’ve been wearing a crappy bra for the past few days (note to self - throw it out!!), I’ve had on and off headaches over the past few days, probably not drinking enough (water… check, alcohol… no check, *sigh*). On top of that Zack has been pulling out all the stops to be the most annoying child in the (my?) world! Everything is shouted many many many times over, he’s wanting to be on my lap or in front of me ALL the time, and the fake cry… OH I HATE that fake cry - can I have a punch bag please??!!

So… I’ll be back next week with a better ku I promise

I borked the computer while trying to install PSE so I’m just about to reboot the whole thing. Something I didn’t expect to have to do for quite a while… *sigh*So no real post today cause I’m just TOO! HACKED! OFF! So I’m in a huff while backing up the mass amounts of photos I have already accumulated. *groan*

I’m on my soapbox and I have something to say. There is NO WAY a 4 year old should be allowed to roam around ON HIS OWN all day long, and yet some people seem to think it’s completely fine - WTH?!

What’s set me off on this? Last night I had taken Zack along with me to the corner shop which is a good 5 minute walk with a toddler and on our way back I noticed a little boy outside our close (block of flats for those not used to the Scottish term!), shivering away and crying. I popped Zack inside with J and went back out to see what was the matter.

Now I’ll just point out now, this is not the first time I’ve seen this child out on his own unsupervised. Last summer I saw him countless times wandering by our flat on his own looking for the boys next door from us to play with. Oh, did I mention he was playing chicken on the road? You know… running in and out between the parked cars… sickening isn’t it?

So, back to last night. I checked what his name was to make sure I didn’t have my wires crossed (I didn’t), and said I’d take him back along to his house as it was teatime and everyone had gone inside leaving him on his own. He refused point blank to come with me so I said I was going to get his mum and he could come with me or wait for her to come along, still a big fat NO, so off I went.

I went along to his house to speak to his mum… she didn’t seem fussed about the fact that he was out all the way along by our house on his own, in fact it wasn’t until I mentioned he was running out onto the road that she came along to pick him up.

I was tempted to ask her if she realized it was illegal for her to knowingly let him out to play on his own like that being completely unsupervised, but I thought I’d better not push it, I just hope that it doesn’t take him being run over for her to realize that it’s not appropriate.

I can’t imagine not knowing where Zack is at all times. I mean it’s all very well allowing a kid to go into a garden to play, so long as it’s fenced off and you’re WATCHING them, but to just open the door and assume you know where they’ll be?? In this day and age it’s madness. Imagine if some sicko decided to take him away, she wouldn’t have a clue he was missing because she just lets him out to roam around on his own.

It’s just NOT RIGHT people!! Or am I making a big deal of this?

/soapbox off

I have like 3 or four half finished posts here in my drafts but I just have no energy to finish any of them at the moment, so you’re getting a filler.

You wanna know why I cba finishing them? It’s because up until last night I’d had roughly 12 hours of very-broken-sleep since last tuesday *sigh*

<<<takes a break to go feed crying baby>>> *sigh* baby wouldn’t take full feed… grr!

ok where was I? oh yes… why you’re getting a filler.

well it seems that Max has been turned by Braden and Amy to the Revolution of not letting us sleep.  His feeding is soooo erratic I just don’t know what the hell do do anymore.  His sleeping has gone from him going to bed at around 8pm, feeding at 11pm ish and him being more-or-less down until 4-5am (I was happy with that!) to going to bed around 8pm, half-waking and needing resettled on and off til 10.30/11pm having a measly amount of milk, and waking at almost 2am on the dot, having another pathetic amount of milk, taking ages to go back to sleep and waking at 5.30am again generally being a crying whingy baby.  I CANNOT TAKE MUCH MORE!!

I am to bloody tired to think straight, I want to hand him to someone else.  Any takers? Free to a good home…

ack there he goes again with the screaming - Oh I didn’t tell you about the constant screaming? The clinginess and the general if-I’m-put-down-I-will-scream-for-hours is also driving me slowly to an early grave I’m telling ya!

So bear with me, the whiny posts, the general crankiness of me over the next few weeks until whatever this damn phase is passes.  Tiredness and a clingy baby is doing my head in!

Yes this is a whingy/ranty/whiny post…

1. I have a killer migraine and nothing I have taken is working, and it’s not like I can hide in a quiet darkened room while looking after the boys is it?
2. I have PMS… 2nd period since having Max started today. Why won’t the damn pads stick to my knickers?! you’d think Always would have figured out how to make em stick by now ffs!
3. Max is being a fussy wee guy with his feeding - ie he’ll have all of 90ml of milk and then refuse to have anymore.
4. The reason for Max’s fussiness is that he’s teething - oh joy.
5. Zack keeps emptying out the entire contents of his (large) toy cabinet thingy in places that I have to tidy it up so as not to leave it for accidents later on.
6. I’m tired shattered exhausted from teething baby and toddler running me ragged.
7. I am not sure if I like this theme anymore… it’s a bit bland.
8. It’s 3.5 hours til Zack’s bedtime… this is too far away for my liking.
9. There’s no chocolate in the house.
10. It’s raining so I refuse to leave the house for chocolate.
11. I am watching Madagascar for about the 1239458th time this year just to keep Zack happy and not screaming.
12. I have no idea what to make for dinner tonight.
13. I’ve run out of ideas for a 13th reason… I suck.

ugh, sorry for all the ranting but pms and no chocolate = very very bad day… feel sorry for my family today, they’re having to put up with a grumpy mummy/wife who just wants to hide with a hot water bottle under her duvet.

Tomorrow will be a better day I’m sure…