A Little Space for Me

…when you’re broody as hell.

First of all, just so you (my parents) don’t get all worked up (sorry but it’s true! ) I am NOT pregnant and I am NOT INTENDING to get pregnant in ANY way, shape or form. I PROMISE.  So you really, REALLY don’t need to tell me that it’s a bad idea - I already KNOW that!

Ok, disclaimer out of the way.

So, let’s start with a list of the bloggers I know of who are preggers at the moment (lucky b!tchs!!!)…

There’s Laura from Oraeley who’s due date is today - come on Carly, make everyone jealous of your mummy by coming out ON TIME!!!!!

Then there’s the OTHER Laura, from Synchronization of Us, you’ll get your sexing scan soon sweety ((hugs)).

Fern from Not Nigella is also up the duff (don’t you just love that phrase? ).

Then there’s Taz, Veronica, and now RACHAEL from Antithete has decided to join the cool kids and has announced her pregnancy too.

Now, come ON girls! This is just! not! fair!

I already have a real LIVE new baby up the stairs from me (and ohhhhh she is SOOOO CUUUUUUTE!!!), so I really DON’T NEED THIS NOW!!

I must NOT be broody.  Do you know WHY? Cause I can’t handle the pregnancies.  I am one of those people who actually enjoys the giving birth (not when I’m in it, obviously), and isn’t too fussed about the after-effects, new baby etc… I can deal with all that. What I can’t deal with is even the thought of going through the pain I had during my pg with Max again. SPD is EVIL to me. I *should* have been on crutches for the last couple of months of Max’s pregnancy, but I decided what was the point since I couldn’t really GO anywhere anyway. I was housebound, with a toddler, in extreme pain, and I couldn’t move without crying. Really, it was THAT sore.

I don’t EVER want to go through that pain again, so much so that I will settle with having my two boys, who I love to pieces and am SO lucky to have. I just wish there was a way to pass my uber fertility to someone else who would WILL make a great daddy one day.

So, no more kids for me, even though I would love to have them, I just couldn’t do that again. It wouldn’t be fair on J, on the boys, or on my body. It does hurt a little though, to know that I won’t be having any more. Especially when I see so many all around these days…

Mind you, they do say… “never say never”… don’t they?

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