A Little Space for Me: Insanity is hereditary… you get it from your kids.

I keep coming here, thinking I should write something. I have started a few posts, they’re even in my drafts – I’m not normally one to have posts on the back-burner, but I seem to at the moment!

So, I went back on anti-depressants on Thursday. As I said before, I’ve been feeling like I was sliding back down that slippery slope, and that’s just not something I’m willing to let myself do. Five days in now, my anxiety levels have totally plummeted and I’ve had more energy/felt more motivated to get things done around the house instead of that, “oh, I really can’t be bothered” feeling I had been getting back a bit. Whether the meds have really kicked in so quickly, or it’s a placebo effect… well quite frankly, I don’t care, it’s working to help me not feel so unmotivated/emtional/upset/anxious, so I’m not going to bother about it!

Max has started responding to his name much more this week, and has found his rhythm too – we have another little mover in our midst it seems, shaking his shoulders and stamping his feet in time to music. Get’s it from me, naturally. He’s also finally figured out how to get down from the sofa safely, instead of practically putting his hands out and walking off it waiting for me to catch him! Just as well he’s such a cutie…

Zack has found the new “Voice Memos” app on my iPhone and has been recording little songs on there for me – *so* sweet to listen to. We seem to be getting on a lot better recently (I’ve jinxed it now haven’t I?). I think he’s now totally used to J being away and so isn’t as up and down as a result. Though he does still say he misses his daddy every day and asks when he’ll be home next – hopefully his 4th birthday in just over 2 weeks!

Speaking of Zack’s birthday, I haven’t got him anything yet. I don’t really know *what* to get him. We haven’t got anywhere that’d be suitable for him to ride a bike, and with me having Max and the buggy whenever we go out, he wouldn’t get much (if any) use out of it. We spent the weekend watching movies – particularly the Transformer movies, both the cartoon one of J’s from ‘86, and the live action one that was out a couple of years ago. He loved both of them, so I’m thinking maybe some Transformers. Then again, most of them seem to have a 5+ age rating, and I would hate for him to get them to find they were too difficult for him. I’ll be heading out on Weds afternoon (the last afternoon with Zack at nursery for 7 weeks!!) to hopefully buy some of his pressies without him seeing anything.

I’m also hoping to take him to see Ice Age 3 for his birthday. That’s assuming J definitely manages down ofc. It’ll be his first ever time at the cinema. I’m guessing that almost 3 weeks after it’s released there won’t be too many other people who will go to see it first thing, or at least (hopefully) they’ll be in a similar boat as me! LOL – I can keep my fingers crossed at least!

I’ve been listening to Lily Allen’s album “It’s Not Me, it’s You“, and I’m pretty damn impressed – every single track is great, in my opinion. Not something you get very often these days! I’ve had it on repeat since Sat night when I downloaded it from iTunes. I do need to be careful not to play a couple of the more explicit songs in front of the boys of course, but there’s still plenty of time in the evenings.

Ooh and here’s something that’s a bit of a pain… on thursday evening my neighbours’ kids were playing with their football outside (as usual, never a problem, they’re good kids!) and I was cosied up on the sofa for an evening of tv. I heard a *thud* and at the same time that happened, my Sky channels went to nothing. I don’t think they could have got the ball to hit it like that if they’d tried! I called up the tv company straight away and I don’t have to pay for anything to be replaced at least, but get this – the earliest appointment they had for someone to come out is July 8th. Almost two bloody weeks later! They are more than willing to take those two weeks off my bill thank goodness, otherwise I think I’d have cancelled my account with them and gone with another company all together. So that’s the reason for our movie-watching weekend. We have no tv. Dundee is notoriously bad for reception of terrestial tv, so we’re making do with movies and playing games on the Wii. I thought it would be so hard to be without, but actually I think it’s been a good change for all of us! I do miss my soaps though.

My parents are coming over for the afternoon tomorrow, so hopefully the weather won’t be too weird for that.I don’t know about the rest of the world, but here in Dundee it’s been very humid and whizzing between cloudy/overcast/drizzling and scorching sunshine with blue skies multiple times per day! Case in point: Zack was dressed in welly boots for nursery this morning as it had been pouring down with rain (they change into gym shoes inside). Two and a half hours later the sun was out and his feet were too hot, lol!

I’m off to bed for an earlyish night with a (hopefully) good book. Hmm, maybe not to bed quite yet. I just heard a very awake Max being cheerful in his cot, guess I’ll go visit a few more blogs then…

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